Wednesday, November 06, 2013

wow.  I'm ashamed to say that I'd almost forgotten about this blog.  It used to be a daily thing with me.  I've made some fabulous friends here.  Blogging helped me get through some really tough times, and I don't think I would have survived without it.

I've been thinking about starting a new one.  I can't really come to this one. That was a different life, and I think a new one is more fitting.  I think I need that "release"that I had back then.

But I AM going to check up on some of my favorites on here!  I'll let you know if I set up a new one and we can all "catch up".

Tuesday, February 05, 2013

Valentine's Day coming up soon.

I hate Valentine's Day.

Almost as much as Christmas.


Wednesday, December 05, 2012

Fire is a process

So much going on.

some good.  some not.

Life is changing fast....even tho it's taken years to get to this point.

And it makes me appreciate long slow lazy days in the sun.  When you're young and haven't a care in the don't get the mail, you never answer the phone cuz you now it's not for you, you never worry about what you'll eat the night cuz supper is always made for you by someone else. You're biggest worry is if you'll still have a Best Friend tomorrow and if you'll have someone to sit next to in the cafeteria.

I've made some decisions that were very hard to make.  Gut wrenching, soul searching decisions.  The kind of decisions that effect your whole family and change lives. I pray that I make the right choices. I pray that my kids will be ok throughout the process of change.

But I know for my own peace of mind, I have to do what I feel is best for me.  I've put everyone before me for so long, that these thoughts feel very selfish and foreign to me. And while I'm scared....I'm also filled with hopes and dreams that I haven't dared to dream before. My heart is breaking for the hurt I've caused, but I pray that we all come out of the fire stronger.

More to come as things progress.

Monday, November 19, 2012

Tuesday, October 09, 2012


I am SO not a "country girl"....

I llike classic rock...jazz....pop....alternative.  But country?  meh..not really.

But this song, "Wanted" by Hunter Hayes?   LOVING IT.

I have a very obsessive personality...I get a favorite song and listen to it CONSTANTLY on REPEAT.

and that's what's going on in my house today...this song on repeat.


so not ready for this cold weather.  But looking forward to a trip to NYC in November to see some great new friends, and to visit some dear old friends who mean the world to me.  I love to travel!


gotta get back to my song.....

Monday, September 17, 2012

Monday, September 10, 2012

not my time

ok... nooooo, I haven't been to the dr yet. Well, that's not true. I did get my 12 week check up for the cervical cancer.....and I only have to go once a year now!!! WOOHOOOO!!!! clean bill of health there!!! No cancer cells, pre or otherwise. :) But as for my stomach...nope. haven't gone. My kid comes first. And he's been having horrible headaches. I had him in the ER on Tuesday night....he had a BAD headache all day amount of medicine helped it..and it got progressively worse, resulting in him throwing up. I thought migraines. so I take him to the ER at 10pm. First mistake! We were there for about an hour before they even called him back to take his blood pressure or ask why the heck he was there. then they stuck us in a room where we sat for 2 hours before another living soul came in the room. They came in...took some blood...started an iv for some pain meds...then disappeared for another 2-3 hours. Came back in and things started rolling. The "bands" in his white blood cell count was elevated...should be around 0-3%...his was at 20%. They suspect bacterial meningitis. Want to do a spinal tap. Start him on 2 VERY powerful antibiotics. We get the spinal tap done...he handled it like a champ. They also tested for strep, mono, and the flu. 2 hours later, everything comes back NEGATIVE. Thank you baby jesus!! We finally get home at 7:30am. He is still having headaches and throwing up....took him to the dr today. He said Migraines. gonna start him on some meds to see if they help. re-evaluate him in a week. I can't help but think this is from his dirtbike accident 3 years ago, and we have progressed to this. :( so I'm on hold for right now till I get him together. But I WILL go to the dr. PROMISE.