Back to reality

Today is my last day in California and I'm sad.

I've had such a wonderful time visiting friends and seeing the sights.

Zombie Mom has been a godsend to me and Mad Mary showed me Hollywood like only she can. Glozell handed me some fantastic advice and made me laugh in the process. These girls are the best. I know some people don't "get" blogging....I've talked about this so many times...but I've met some really and truly wonderful people through this thing and am so thankful for it. I feel like the girls and I will be friends forever.

I've had a chance to re-connect with some friends from high school that I haven't seen in years and that was a freakin BLAST! Went out last night to a little bar in Temecula, sat outside on the patio and had drinks and listened to some great live music with Lisa and John. Funny how, you may not see each other for years but as soon as you get back together, things just flo so easy.

I don't want to leave and go back to Ohio weather!!! NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! but I do miss my boys....

Spending some time with some very good friends.

sometimes you just need some "girl time", ya know?


I have to say that I have some of the BEST girlfriends in the world,
they have my back and want to see happiness in my life.

How can you get better than that?

20 pounds down

boobs are GONE :(

butt still here

hips still here

I can live with that I guess

I'm crying.

I have the BEST friends in whole wide world.

Seriously.

I love you all so damn much.

I must apologize to my wonderful Gay friends.


I love you all so very very much, and your friendship means the world to me. I would never do anything intentionaly to hurt any one of you. You are all my friends and I love you dearly.

I will do what I have to to make this right.

I love you.

ok, so I deleted the post. Happy now?

My kid is FARRRR from a "gay basher". I didn't think it was offensive, but then, I'm not Gay. So I apologize profusely to all of my Gay friends, who I love with all of my heart and soul.


The boys were making fun of the Girard football team..not Gay people in general. I don't know about the other boys, but I know MY KIDS. I don't tolorate that in my house, and they know it. they love their Uncle Tranny dearly, and would never want to hurt him in any way.

As far as reporting it to the school and shit like that....go right ahead. Doesn't bother me any.

Senior skit and the last Home game

It was cold last night...30-something. no rain, no snow, thank goodness. This is me and My Girl, Tracy...my football bitch!! ;)

2 touchdowns later and a lot of mud.....WE WON! 21-0!

Senior skit. Pretty Boys. And yes, those legs ARE shaved and very very smooth.

Showing off their neon finger nail polish...

SENIORS! SENIORS! SENIORS!!

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No video yet...sorry. Everytime I try to upload it to my computer...something happens. I don't know what, but it screws up. I need my Computer Guru to come home from Akron and hook me up!

Ever try telling a 17 year old boy that he CANNOT do something?




ya. they like to prove you wrong.


showoffs is what they are.

Catching up a bit...

** I keep forgetting to make a dentist appt. for my youngest son...so he's left me post it notes all. over. the. house. On the bathroom mirror, on the computer keyboard, on the monitor, and the phone, on the steps...i find them in the strangest places.

** I have the song "Never Say Never" by The Fray on repeat.

** and that damn Miley Cyrus song, "Party in the USA". KILLS ME. I freakin LOVE it, and I hate her with a passion. But I cannot stop myself from singing it. it comes on the radio in the car and I am singing that thing LOUDLY. the boys want to jump out of the car, into on-coming traffic, just to get away from me. I say LET 'EM!!

** still have not seen "Flash Forward". Has anyone else? any good?

** and I hate to say this, but my Project Runway is sooo boring this season. I don't even care who wins anymore.

** and can I just say this...Heidi Klum, I love with an undying passion, but you named your baby girl LOU? REALLY? You couldn't think of a better name than that?..something a little cuter? Really?

** I want to get that ZOOM teeth whitening thingie...but at $400, its a little out of my price range. ouch.

**I've decided that life can be good, regardless of what your circumstances are. You're alive, right? ;) Better than the alternative, I'd say.

** my boobs are still shrinking. time for some implants I think. Ya right, if I can't get my stinkin teeth whitened, how the hell am I gonna buy some boobs? ;)

** butt's still there tho! that I don't mind so much...I kinda like my big butt.

** My kid's skit at school is tomorrow, and yes, they are dancing to "Its Raining Men". He showed me their routine and I cannot wait to see it. I hope the school lets me videotape...last year they didn't, cuz of privacy laws and stuff. We shall see.

** I really miss singing at church. I need to find someplace to sing again. Maybe I need to start my own garage band?..

** I have been reading Vince Flynn, and I'm loving him. right now it's "Memorial Day". Sort of a spy/government/terrorist kind of thing. His character Mitch Rapp is a BADDASS and I want to marry him and have 10 babies with him. and he could teach me how to "disable" someone with a paperclip and a piece of bread.

** Yes, I'm addicted to Facebook. There. I admitted it. That's half the battle, right?

** Oldest boy had a career fair at school the other day. He gave out lots and lots of resumes, to all the "alphabet agencies" (I spelled it right that time Dog!). There is at least a 6-month application process for those places, so he's starting now. I'm so proud of him, I could bust.

Lots of stuff going on with me right now.

some good, some bad.

But I'll come through to the other side just fine.

I hope.

I just know this....

It's not selfish of me to want to be happy.

My Weekend

on this episode of "Scarred"......

You all know that my youngest rides a dirtbike, right?

and he's pretty fearless...

I can see that you know where this is going....

Well, he was at his friend's house, riding the trails they have in the woods..enjoying his little self immensely.

Coming home...he's riding down the road, almost home, and this ASSHOLE pulls right out in front of him.

Austin HITS this truck, flies over his handlebars, flies over the truck,and lands on the ground. Thank God for helmets, right? and chest protectors.

The guy in the truck comes rushing over, "Hey Buddy! are you ok Buddy? I didn't even see you! its all my fault!"

What does MY kid say?

"What the FUCK man?!"

ya.

but at least he was able to talk, right? ;)

So this guys wife calls the ambulance,..Austin is woozy and stumbling around, so he sits down on the ground. He is able to pull out his phone and calls his dad, who was just pulling in the driveway from work.

"Dad, I was in a crash."

His dad goes tearing off down the road. This happened like 3 roads away from our house. Austin is sitting on the ground and this lady is with him, and she sees this cruiser come FLYING down the road.

"That's my dad."

"THAT"S YOUR DAD??!!!" (oh shoot, we are screwed now!)

So, then his dad calls me.

"What are you doing?"

"Yoga"

"Austin was in a wreck...a truck hit him."


Nowwww..........there's so many things wrong with that statement, but I just won't/can't go into it right now. Lets just try a little gentler way of saying it next time, shall we?

So the ambulance comes, I tear off down the road, they're loading my kid into the ambulance, he's on a stretcher, neck brace and all strapped in. I FREAKED.

I run home, get my crap and head to the hospital.
and I wait........and wait........and wait for the freaking ambulance to get there.

Finally they show up, unload my kid and we get inside. People came from EVERYWHERE. You want fast service in the ER?...go in an ambulance,strapped to a stretcher. it will get you noticed.

Cat scan, neck x-rays...full right leg x-rays. he can't move his leg, thinks it might be broken.

Finally, all results are negative. woohoo! he has a concussion and a severe bone bruise on his shin. THAT'S ALL!! He's on crutches, and can't go to school for 2 days, and is very very happy on his Vicodin.

We finally get home, and he's like,
"Mom, I HAVE to go to school tomorrow. Do I really have to stay home?"

Are you thinking what I'm thinking? GIRL INVOLVED SOMEWHERE!! and how cool to hit a truck and live to tell about it, huh? AND be on crutches. wayyy cool.

Oh, and his dirtbike is JACKED UP. Of course, that's all he's worried about. silly boy.

So it was a very eventful day in my house, to say the least. I'm glad it's almost over. Waiting up for Rae and Mike to get here. YAYAY!

I'll deal with his dad some other time.

All That Remains

Busy weekend ahead for me.

Rae and Mike are on their way home tonight...BIG football game tomorrow night.......Bree's birthday party on Saturday.

and the Mega Millions Jackpot is $145 million.


Even taking the cash payout and splitting it with my "room mate"....I'd still have plenty left over to live my life and take care of the people that I love the most.

If only, right? .............

Calling Uncle Tranny!!!!!

So,....

next week is "spirit week" at our high school.

The kids dress up all week long in crazy outfits and then on Friday, they have a skit contest...and my kid is a senior, so of course, they have to win skit, right?


well, last year about this time..I posted a picture of he and his brother in cheer leading outfits. they looked pretty cute, if I do say so myself.

well, in the skit, they are boy cheerleaders. Gay boy cheerleader's.

so he calls me:

"Hey mom..whats a really Gay song to dance to?"

I'm thinking maybe culture club or "Im too sexy for my shirt" something like that...

then he says,

"Ask Uncle Tranny."


HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, Uncle Tranny.....your nephew wants to know a really Gay song that he and his friends can dance to...and I promise to videotape it and let you see it!

watch out!

Why is it...

that some days you feel so "blah"...

and then others, you feel like you can take on the whole world?
I am feeling really really good today.

Like the weight of the world has been lifted from my shoulders and I can finally stand up tall and proud.

???????


I don't know....But I'm not looking a gift horse in the mouth!

Got a chicken roasting in the oven, some good books to read, and I'm trying this new thing called "budokon"....its a mixture of martial arts, yoga and meditation. We'll see hot that goes. Jack Baurer....watch out! that guy from "Taken"? watch out! I seriously want to kick some ass like they do. That's what I want to be in my next life...the guy from "Taken". really. No one would EVER mess with me again!


The sun is shining and I feel good. Don't question it...just go with the flow.

Senior Pictures

What I did today.....

Senior picture time














and last but not least...

"Can I really give this one out to my friends, Mom?!"

Happy Birthday

Today is my Mom's birthday.

She would have been 70 years old today.

70.

wow.

Which would've been fine with her, cuz she only claimed the "even" years anyway! ;)

I miss her terribly, even tho she got on my last frickin nerve sometimes.

But I am determined not to cry today.

But it's only 1:21 AM right now...so I don't know how long that will last.

So..........Happy Birthday Mom.

I love you


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That photo up in the header? that's where my Mom's ashes will be scattered. She loved Nags Head.

she walked that beach every day.

She watched her grandkids play on that beach every day.

She gathered sea glass and shells on that beach.

It's the only place she found peace.

so that's where she will rest.

ashes to ashes, dust to dust

I just got a call from Ohio University.


My Mom's ashes will be delivered next week.

her birthday is this Sunday.

Perfect timing, no?


I am an emotional wreck right now and can't stop crying.

the tears just won't stop. I'm trying, but it's just not working.


What do I do with her ashes? She wanted them scattered over water, preferably the ocean.

So I guess I need to make a trip to the ocean.