The Big Scheme and Chemo

I don't know if you guys remember or not...

but about 3 years ago, Marvin's best friend Marty, was diagnosed with brain cancer.

her had surgery and radiation and chemo...everything was clear.

Not anymore.

It's back, but in a different part of the brain. so please send up some prayers for him, if you can.

I do have to say this:

It really brought things into perspective for me.

Here's this man, with 3 small children, fighting for his life and I'm worried about toxic people in my life. sort of insignificant, in the big scheme of things, ya know?

So, being a New Year and all, I'm getting a different mindset.

Toxic people? who cares? yes, they suck the very breath out of you at times, but in the Big Scheme of things, do they really matter?
nope.

Past hurts and transgressions? do they really matter in the Big Scheme of things?

nope.

I've chosen to move on and to, most importantly, forgive the people who have hurt me. it's more for me than for them, cuz they won't even know about it! ;) But I will.

and today I feel good. The other night, I was really low and missing my Mom like crazy. Dog has chosen to make up a recipe in her honor that I can make when I'm missing her, and pass it down to my family. thanks Dog!

And I see how much my family means to me...just the very thought of losing them fills me with dread. and makes my heart beat so much faster and this anxiety rise up in my chest. the past couple of months have been rough for us, all my doing, of course, but I've seen the light....again. I need to "see the light" daily, if necessary! ;)

So, please pray for Marty. he's a wonderful friend and a great dad and husband. I know he'll get through this trial too.