Lunch today:
chick peas, fried in a little bit of good olive oil and LOTS of chopped garlic...then frozen spinach added at the end, since I had no fresh. YUM!!! Thanks Rocky!!!!
We went back to our old church yesterday and I have to say this...
I felt really good all day long.
I miss church. I miss the people, and the singing and the worship. I DON"T miss the pettiness, but you're going to get that anywhere right?
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Austin finally has an appointment with a neurologist this Thursday. the OGT's are coming up in March and if he needs a modified test, then we have to get on the ball with that. He's flailing about in school these days. He can't take the thoughts in his head and put them to paper...he can't concentrate in class cuz "the noises are so loud"..the rustling of papers, the books slamming on the desks..the talking. His moods are way out of whack...one minute he's smiling and laughing. The next he is in a rage beyond belief. I had to help him with his homework one night for two hours. he just couldn't connect the questions with the answers. To say I'm scared for him would be a gross misstatement. I am worried beyond anything I';ve ever felt that this might be a life long battle for him now. Is there brain damage from the accident? Brain trauma for sure, but permanent damage? I am really scared. This has always been a loving, easy going child....stuff rolled of his back like he was a duck. No more. worry worry. and he's had to battle all his life to just grow, with his horrible allergies. But he's taller than me now, and growing like a weed! I hope he passes up BOTH of his brothers.
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Bud has another outbreak of Staph. But we can't get him to the infectious disease specialist quite yet. he just started his new job and can't ask for time off yet...so he suffers. But he was home for the weekend to watch his brother play in the BEST BASKETBALL GAME EVER, so I got to spend some time with him. I miss that boy. Can't call him a boy anymore tho...he came to the game in his work clothes...all dressed up. he's a freakin MAN now. When did THAT happen and where was I?!
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Grandson Joey was supposed to have surgery to get his adenoids out in December. They did the preliminary blood work and found out he has something called "Factor 5" and needs more testing. I haven't looked it up on the internet....too spooky and I'll freak out cuz they always give you the absolute worst outlook!!!
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Marvin and I went out for a "date nite" on Saturday. Our counselor told us to have 3 date nites a week...a talk date, a family date and a "date" date. We have been very lazy in doing this. But we DID go out Saturday, and it was nice. We went to the Olive Garden and sat at the bar, ate soup and salad and watched the Bengals game on tv. Might not be a great date for other people, but it was right up our alley. Things are going soo soo good right now. SCARY! ;) I have such a great outlook for us now. Maybe I never really wanted to leave in the first place...I just wanted a change for the better. and he's come through with flying colors. I didn't know he cared that much, to be really honest...or that he even loved me anymore. But he does. Who woulda thunk it? ;)
OH! the BEST BASKETBALL GAME EVER!!! We beat our arch rivals, the Newton Falls Tigers. We were down by 20 points at one time...they were dropping 3's like crazy and never missed. Us? not so much. Easy layups were being missed. But we pulled it together at the end. final seconds of the game...we were down 64-66. Austin's best friend Matt dribbles down the court and lobs a 3 up...and SWOOSH! it went in and the place erupted!!! The coach grabbed Matt and threw him over his shoulder and ran around the gym! the fans ran out on the court and were jumping up and down!! NF had been yelling "THIS IS OUR HOUSE!". When that 3 went in? not a PEEP out of them. Just doesn't get any better than that!!!
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So I haven't done any P90X yoga or Pilate's since I got back from San Diego. UGH. But I am getting back to it. We are going to Cancun next month and I want to wear a bikini. Can you believe it? Never thought I'd EVER wear a bikini again, but damn it, I'm wearing one!!! The weight loss has tapered off cuz it's hard to get out and walk in this weather. so I'll be going to the mall in the mornings and walk with all the other old people! Boobs? gone. Butt...almost gone. I have a big ole stack of jeans that no longer fit. Should I keep them, just in case, or should I get rid of them? I have 3 pairs of pants that fit now. and I'm actually wearing a size small in shirts again. Of course, that's not hard to do when you have NO BOOBS to put in a shirt!
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and tell me this....if you sent a friend a Christmas present...way back in December, before Christmas...mailed it to them, as they live in another state. And you've yet to hear that they received it. Nothing. Nada, zip, zilch...nothing. And yes, this is the "toxic friend" I had to cut from my life, but still.....shouldn't that person let me know if they received it? at least acknowledge it and say "Hey, thanks for the thoughtful gift"? It wasn't much.....just a few small things. But things that they would like nonetheless. Oh well. Just reinforces my thought that this person is toxic to my life and should be cut out...and HAS been cut out. I don't regret sending the gift..I would never regret that. I love to give gifts to the people that I care about. But damn, didn't your mama teach you to say "Thank you"??!!! I want to call and say something but then I think..."no....But damn! I never thought they would just NOT say anything! I mean, I'd send a card and they would thank me for the stupid card! so this has me baffled and scratching my head in wonder. I keep telling myself that there has to be a reasonable answer to this...something I don't know about or something like that...cuz surely, they wouldn't just not say anything!!! huh? But I guess that's what you get with toxic people, right? and selfish people. LIfe goes on for me and I hope it does for them as well.
15 comments:
Dear TrannyBeth -
My God, that was one hell of an update.
I think you need to become a Doctor. Just think of all the money you'd save on co-pays if YOU could treat all the ailing members of your family?!?
I am SO jealous of your weight loss. I keep gaining and gaining and gaining (I'm eating McDonald's as I type this). One of these days I'm just going to explode.
I am also happy to hear about you and the Hubby. I guess you got that 6-9 inches you had hoped for :) Oh, wait, that was SNOW...
Finally, FORGET ABOUT THE GIFT!!! It's done ... water under the bridge. Forget you ever sent it. Because if you keep thinking about it, you might be tempted to re-establish contact. And THAT would be a big mistake.
Listen to your Tranny... I am fat and wise. Like Buddha.
Love you!!!!!
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
tranny: yes master.
Hon. Austin. Get that work done. For what it is worth, the brain is amazingly plastic and can heal itself tremendously.....prayers offered.
Glad you and the man are getting out more. THAT is good to hear.
I missed you! I knew I missed you but reading that update made me want to hug your neck!
A BIKINI! How awesome, I'm so excited!
who you going to cancun with? You & Marvin? Glad your date nights are going well!
I had chickpeas and the same thing you did for lunch yesterday.. the whole office smelled of garlic.. it was delicious!
What David said...mostly :-) McD's is not on my menu right now..
And Austin - since this is part of my corner of the world - professionally and personally - we are waiting on an appointment with a neuro-psychologist.
Depending on his diagnosis, whatever it is, read, read, read and read some more, whatever you can get your hands on, become an expert - as you have to become the advocate with his school.
Then, in all your dealings with the school, be so positive your teeth will hurt.
Because, and I'm speaking from the school and teacher/tutor point of view now (and not my role as a parent) I never EVER understood how parents would come into the meeting, treat us like shit and then expect us to bend over backwards for their child.
(We did anyway, because we are wonderful like that, but still why take the chance?).
Finally - hangeth in there!
LMAO @ Tranny. Even his comments are funny.
He's right about the gift. Let it go. Let the relationship go. You'll be happier if you can forget.
WAY to go on the weight loss and the marriage. Neither is an easy thing to accomplish and the fact that you're doing both at the same time? AMAZING!
I'm praying hard for the boys. Hopefully you will have an answer soon about Austin and it will be something treatable. I can't imagine living with that fear and worry, but I AM afraid Russ is going to be giving me similar situations in the future.
Big, big hugs.
Dang girl, I hope your boys get some answers. SCARY!
You know I had to kick my husband in his ass a while back. It worked.
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butterflylady97@yahoo.com
Wow, that was quite the update. Lots of news and while some of it is scary I can hear your overall feeling of hopefulness.
It's so heartening to read that life is treating you well!! I hope for lots more of that for you.
And your right, that must have been the most awesome basketball game ever!!
My God, I agree with Mame, that was one hell of a post! I missed those posts! Glad to hear your so upbeat and things are going good. The new year might just fool ya! And I was thinking more like 7-9 inches, of snow that is!!!
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX-
Maddie
Congratulations on the weight loss. Your hard work has paid off. I'm so glad you and Marvin are working on your relationship and happy about the progress. Way to go!
I agree with Maddie since we're both size queens.
aint nothing wrong with being a SIZE QUEEN!!!!!!!
Seems like you got some uplifting comments about Austin. Be his support and I think that will ease a lot of anxiety in him.
Sometimes, I feel a little gypped, but I knew it was a possiblity. I can't imagine that he won't have some resentments. Therapy helped me a lot, but I had lived nearly half my life.
He is just starting. Ouch.
The date night thing is something to be practice as much as possible, but I think the 'date, date' is a by product of the talk date going well. I have been of the mind that once you relate to each other more mentally, you will relate in all other areas. (gets off soapbox!)
Your new photo is great! Good lookin' woman- that's you!
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