My tattoo!!!


I have so many things to talk about, and so many pictures to show you....but I am dead beat tired! sorry!

I will do it all tomorrow, I promise.

So we are back from our visit to Kerrville...back in dallas. headed for nashville in the morning..then a flight home.

then and I will be off to california again!!!!

ahhhhhh.....


i love to travel!!!

bean and I have had a great time. I got lots of great photos too, and have plans for some of them. Right, dog? ;)

But tonight i am going to bed early, so we can get on the road by 3am.

Lots of pix and video to come.

OH! and I got a tattoo today!!!

A week of Johns

Ok, so I get on the plane in Memphis...headed for Nashville. Im right up front, second row back...I stow my camera overhead and sit by the window. I HAVE to have a window seat cuz why else would you fly, right? ya gotta look out the window! so then this man sits down next to me...and takes over the arm rest. im pissed and think,oh shit, i gotta sit next to THIS guy??!!

so he starts talking to me..asking me what I do and crap. I tell him Im a photographer and do mostly action shots but Im branching out into greetings cards and stuff....and he offers to take MY picture. Now....NO ONE takes MY picture...ever. Im always the one behind the camera. so I let him and think, "well, maybe he's not too bad!"

then he tells me he's a linguist and writes text books for students in Spanish and french...and that he speaks fluent Italian....and he raps!!!! we had the BEST conversation ever! I really enjoyed him. His name is John De Mado and his website is www.demado-seminars.com So you need to go and check him out. he was fantastic. i told him all about bean and that we've been best friends forever. I made him follow me to the baggage claim so he could meet her!!!

So John, if you're reading this...I really enjoyed talking to you and would sit next to you on a plane any day of the week! and you know me...that could be again very soon! ;)

Then last night we went out to a country bar...my first time ever. I played pool for the first time ever...and this live band was there, adn the drummer came up and asked me to country dance...said he would teach me. his name was John. so he taught me to 2-step, whatever the hell that is. then me and Bean are playing pool..and this guy is at the table next to us...his name was John!!! He was so nice and gave us pointers on pool...and bought us a drink. first time a man has ever bought me a drink in a bar!

So in a mater of days I met 3 differnt Johns...one more differnt than the rest! and i had so.much. fun at that country bar!!

ROAD TRIP!!

So bean and I went on a road trip to Dallas! I landed in Nashville, got in her car and we drove to Dallas! well, we did stop last night and stayed in a hotel. then got on the road at 7am and got into Dallas at 4pm. and its cold here!! WTH?!

So we will be here till Thursday or Friday...then back to Nashville and then home.

but I met the most fascinating man on the plane. He sat down beside me and immediately hogged the arm rest...and I was like, damn. but then we started talking and he was so nice! He was a linguist and wrote text books...AND he has his own website selling his cd;s and dvd;s which he RAPS on!!!! more on him later,but his name was John, and he made the flight just "fly" by! LOL I crack myself up!!!

I'm headed to bed cuz I am beat.

Hiatus

So I'll be leaving for a little while.

Gonna hop a plane and spend some time with My Girl, Bina.

sometimes ya just gotta get on a plane and fly to wherever your girlfriends are, just cuz they want you to and they need you to.

And I'll be doing lots of stuff for the photography thing too...

lots of irons in the fire where that's concerned,...but more on that later!

be good ya'll!!!

Rude Boy

Do you ever get "hooked" a song or songs....??

Right now, I am totally stuck on "Rude Boy" from Rhianna..

and "Lost Without You" by Robin Thicke. God, that man is sexy. S.E.X.Y!!! His wife is one lucky woman.

I love a man who can sing...what's sexier than that?

and "Rude Boy" has so many catchy phrases...

speaking of PHRASES:

A friend of mine told me about this little girl at school...10 yr.s old...4th grade. "phrase" was one of her spelling words and she had to use it in a sentence. Guess what it was....

"I know the PHRASE, 'Once you go Black, you never go back.'" YES. 4th grade. She's also the girl who was giving lessons on how to give a blow job at lunch...using a hot dog. YES. What a little darling she is, huh? her mother must be so proud.

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so, why can't I sleep? I take 2-3 tylenol pm's at night, and nothing. Nada, zip....nothing.


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In the paper today, they reported about a body that was found in a house, dismembered, and eaten by the 3 dogs that were in the house. 2 of the dogs were killed and the other was saved, for some reason. I guess the owner died and no one knew it...and he had 3 dogs...and they ended up eating him. Body parts all over the house. Gotta love it.


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Tomorrow night is my son's LAST basketball game....EVER. and he informed me yesterday that he has only 65 days left of school, until the Seniors graduate. Where did the time go, that's what I wanna know. How can he be GRADUATING high school. he just came into the kitchen and tried talking me into cooking him something to eat. I made vegetable lasagna for supper...he won't eat it...so he tries this crap:

"Mama, I'm gonna be leaving soon, so you should cook for me while you ahve the chance."

Um, yaaaa.......i don't think so. But I will miss him something terrible. Not enough to make him stay home with me forever, but I will miss him. And then there will be just ONE. and he has only TWO YEARS left. Then my life will be mine. My life has NEVER been just mine...wow. I'm gonna have some fun! ;)

yes, I'm dreaming of Fall...

anything but Winter.

ITS OK

its ok to:

...let the answering machine take every. single. call.

...keep the sex dirty and the fights clean

...pack up and take off at a moments notice cuz your Best Friend needs you more than your family does.

...put vodka in an empty water bottle and take it to a basketball game..not that I've ever done this.

...just eat the meatballs and sauce and forget the pasta..however hard that is to do.

...have an internet boyfriend

...just as long as he STAYS on the internet! HA!

...love your quiet house after the boys go to school..or girls.

...look for a new puppy even tho the Old Man is still hanging on by a thread

...have a horrible complete crush on Gerard Butler

...really dislike Jennifer Aniston

...want to spend more time with your girlfriends than you do your spouse

...charge people for basketball pictures..even tho they think they should get them for free

...crack your knuckles

...want to go back in time say about...6 months..and do things SO differently

...accept that you can't go back in time..and try to make the best of it

...to hate someone and love them at the same time

...to NOT like salmon

...to always be the designated driver

...to wanna move away to an island in the South Pacific..by yourself...with just a computer and the internet

...and your camera

...realize that assholes are usually pathological liars as well

...to think your kids are great but look forward to the day they all move out

...to be as shallow as a puddle

...or as deep as the ocean

...to let someone else do ALL the cooking

Can't really tell from this pic how dark my hair is, but I think it's wayyy too dark. But every time I wash it, I get purple all over my towel, so that's a good thing!!!


and all I want to know is...why did it take so long to finally start liking myself? man, if I could've felt like this when I was younger...I could have taken on the whole world!!! I've been feeling like.....there's nothing I can't do.

Don't know what's happened to me, but I like it. It's like a switch has been turned on...and I'm finally about to become who I've always wanted to be.

V-Day

All in all, it was a nice day today.

Got some candy..TWILIGHT candy at that!!! HAHAHA!!!! and a mushy card....and a diamond heart necklace. Ya...he's getting much better at gift giving, I'll say that much.

I was very appreciative, so don't worry Uncle Buff.

it's just that I hate that there is all this pressure to perform on V-Day...I mean, if you love someone, you should tell them all the time, not just cuz Hallmark picks a day and tells you to do it on that day. Give gifts whenever you feel like it...ya know what I mean?

I love to give gifts to people....just to give them. A gift card stuck in a card for whatever reason...just cuz I love you and was thinking about you. That makes me happy...to know that on March 11, you got a card in the mail and it had a little somethin somethin in it, and you were surprised.

So then we went took Evan and his girlfriend out to eat...ohhh gawwwdddd. Too much sweetness...sugar overload. But let me say this...I taught that boy good, cuz he is an AWESOME boyfriend. He opens doors, he makes sure she's not cold...all the kinds of stuff that women like, but some men seem to forget. I think it's important for the man to open the door for a woman...not cuz we CAN"T but because we choose NOT to. I always stand aside and let my boys open the door for me. always. Ever since they were little. so, it was nice to see all my hard work come to fruition.

But can they NOT hug so much? or smile at each other so much? Does he have to kiss the top of her head like that while she looks up at him adoringly? sheesh. I was just a tiny bit jealous....I remember those days of young love. Nice.

Then we came home and watched videos of Evan when he was around 3 yr.s old. Too cute! They don't make 'em that cute anymore.

Now I have to go to the bathtub and cry.

Here's a voucher for some oral sex

AS most of you already know...

I am SO not a "Valentine's Day" kind of girl.

and no, it's not cuz the husband doesn't get me anything, cuz I know that's what you're thinking! ;)

I just happen to think it's one of the stupidest "holidays"...so is "Sweetest Day" which I guess is mostly an Ohio thing.

I think if you love someone, you should tell them every day...not wait around for one day a year to buy them flowers and candy or whatever. it's so commercial. UGH.

So the husband always gets me candy (that he likes!) and always gets me a mushy mushy MUSHY card.

Now, do I seem like a "mushy card" kind of girl to you?

NOPE.

I like FUNNY cards. I don't even BUY mushy cards...for anybody. I buy funny cards.

and I want a FUNNY card in return, cuz I love to laugh, that's why. and I think, after 24 years, he should know that about me by now...but does he get me a funny card? nooooooooooooooooooooooooo..............damn it all. and it just ends up pissing me off to no end!

It just all makes me sick.

BLECH!!! Gag me with a spoon.

and speaking of gagging... ;)!!!!

a friend of mine says she "doesn't do THAT" cuz she has a terrible gag reflex...

I think that's what she should give HER husband for V-Day!!!! ;)

Now if you wanna give me sexual favors, then ok, I like V-Day!!!!

ahhhhhhhhhhhh...............

Thursdays Words of Wisdom

You know how some people come into your life and they change it completely?

and then other people come into your life and barely make a blip on your radar screen?

Well, I wanna be a "change" kind of person for my friends.

It doesn't happen to me very often, but when it does, WOW.

I've met a handful of people in my life who I feel "at home" with...

like I've known them my whole life..

like we have a deep connection.

I like to have a "connection" to people, and when I feel that connection, I tend to run with it.

I've learned to trust my instincts. They've never steered me wrong yet.

A friend told me the other day to "always go with your heart in matters of love and go with your head in matters of work".

Wellllllllllll............

I followed my HEAD where I should have followed my HEART, but you know what?

It's ok.

Cuz I've learned some valuable things about myself in the process.

1. Red Flags are there for a reason. that "feeling" in your gut that tells you something "just isn't right" is there for a reason. Listen to it.

2. You should listen to your friends when they tell you to "run like the wind" from a situation. they can see things you can't.

3. That I don't need to "settle" for something that so clearly isn't good for me just to feel like a whole person, a new person, the person I used to be so many many years ago. I can be that person all on my own, without any help form someone else.

4. Even if things don't work out, good can still come out of any situation.

5. Once your heart heals a little bit, things start to look better. and you can see people for who they REALLY are, not what you WANT them to be.

6. No one person can "save" you. that's a lot of responsibility to lay on one person..especially if they can't even save themselves.

7. If you love someone, you have to let them know. Regardless if they love you back or not. Sure, it hurts to hear,"I don't feel the same way"...but to live with regrets would hurt alot more.

8. If someone tells you repeatedly that they are an asshole...you should believe them. Cuz you are in for a rude awakening if you don't.

9. A Leopard never changes his spots. You are not so special that you can make that leopard change and be a tiger. aint gonna happen. Especially if that leopard is old...and cranky...

10. and if the box of hair dye says it's "semi-permanent" and will wash out in 28 shampoos...don't believe it. And no matter how many times a day you wash your hair with dandruff shampoo mixed with baking soda...that shit aint comin out. you just have to have patience.


So there....those are my words of wisdom for today. Take what you can use and throw the rest away.

Lava

Snow.

School is cancelled today.

In fact, they cancelled it last night while we were at the basketball game.

Now, granted, it WAS bad last night...but today?

Meh, not so much.

Its snowing now...but it's not like we're having a blizzard or something.

THOSE KIDS COULD'VE GONE TO SCHOOL!!!!!!

HA!

So, they'll go tomorrow for one day and then have a 4-day weekend.

Stupid.

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I think I figured out a remedy for my chocolate lava cupcakes.

It came to me in the middle of the night.

NUTELLA!!!!!

I put a little dollop of Nutella in the middle of each one and then topped it with more batter. bake at 450 for 15 mins and we'll see what we get.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH...Nutella. How do I love thee?

On a spoon? YES!

On a crepe? HELL YES!!

on toast? Oh YES!!!

on fruit? YES PLEASE!

straight outta the jar? YES!

stirred into hot cocoa? YES!

on steak?

meh, not so much.

oh gawwwddd....



what the HELL am I thinking??!!


I went to Twitter.

I signed up.

I have a twitter page now...like I don't have enough time suckers in my freaking life already.


Am I destined to become a "Twatter"????

what are some cuss words that you just CANNOT say?

Mine are p%$$y..tho is that really a "cuss" word?

and motherf^%$#@.

But, I think that one might become my new "go to" word!!!!!

esp. after that Super Bowl yesterday! ;)

The Burning!!!! Oh The Burning!!!

Super Bowl Sunday

and I'm cooking my rapidly shrinking ass off!!

(4 more pounds down! 16 more to go!)

I got called into work from 2-7, so I gotta get all this stuff done before I go. I've been cooking since 10am this morning. But I'm not complaining cuz I love to do this stuff....I love making all kinds of finger foods and stuff. LOVE IT!

and this has nothing to do with the Super Bowl or food, but I gotta tell you something funny that happened one day..

One of my boys...I won't say which one...came into the living room where I was. this was the conversation.

son.."Hey mom, I really like those baby wipes in the bathroom. You really feel clean after you use them."

(mom's mouth opens wide and refuses to close...blank look in her eyes.)

son: "What?"

mom: "Son, we don't have any baby wipes in the bathroom."

son: "Yes we do...by the toilet."

mom blinks her eyes repeatedly...mouth hanging open.

"YOU IDIOT! THOSE ARE CLOROX DISINFECTING WIPES!"

son: "Is that bad?"

mom, blinking: "Uh....YAAAAAAAA!! You'll burn your asshole out!"


Just another day in the house of Chaos. It's never boring around here, that's for sure.

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So of course, I'm for the Colts and My Man Peyton. He'll get it done..no worries. and I'm kind of looking forward to the commercials.

Chaos

So I go into work last night, and it was a freaking MAD HOUSE.

When we closed up on Wednesday night, it was business as usual....

Not so much yesterday.

"Going out of business" signs were EVERYWHERE...shelves were cleared of video games and stacked up 8 feet high, waiting to be priced and put back out to be sold. People all over the place. The boss called in everyone to work, so it was crowded for us too.

and then you get the rocket scientists that come in,

"Are you guys closing?"

DUH!!! What the hell tipped you off? the THREE HUNDRED SIGNS HANGING FROM THE CEILING??! and we answered that question hundreds of time.

"Well, where am I supposed to rent my movies now??!!!"

HOW THE HELL SHOULD I KNOW? At least you CAN rent a movie...I'm losing my freaking job!!!"

it was insane...people were bringing up stacks of movies to buy...10, 15, 20 movies. then when I tell them it's $51 they throw a hissy fit. I've never wanted to smack so many people in my life.

and where can I find another job where I can harass the boss like I do Carl? We all get along really well, and torment each other mercilessly. Will I ever have another boss I can say,"Hell no I'm not doing anything tonight!" wait, that didn't sound very good... ;)
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and just to take a break for a minute...it's 8:14am and I'm watching The Today Show...and they're talking about the Super Bowl and parties and stuff. They had some chick on there, giving "advice" to women watching the Super Bowl...

"It's a football game between the Colts and the Saints. The Colts are blue and white and the saints are black and gold." REALLY???? REALLY???!!!

"The colts quarterback is Peyton Manning."

OHMYGOD!!!

Women are NOT stupid when it comes to sports, you idiotic woman!!! GAWD!!!! I don't need to know the COLOR of the uniforms so I can tell the difference between the 2 teams. What am I? 4 yr. sold??!!! I think I hate her.

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So, back to the job thing. Marvin wants me to work in a court somewhere..mainly so he can keep an eye on me, I think. While I appreciate that he wants to help me find a job, at first he was a little TOO happy that I was losing this one. But ya'll know me..I had to set him straight that things were NOT going back to what they used to be...in SO many ways. HA! I think he got the idea. ;) But a job in a courthouse would be good. But I don't think they'd let me cuss...maybe, but I doubt it.

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and I colored my hair yesterday...red again. but it came out almost black...again. At least its not a permanent color..it washes out in 28 shampoos, so I'm off to wash my hair with some dandruff shampoo and try to get as much of it out as I can. While I like the dark hair, I REALLY like the red better.

and if ya'll are watching the Super Bowl on Sunday, what are you making to eat?

Would you like porn with that?

The video store is closing.

Can you believe this crap??!!

i get a job after HOW MANY years, and now the company is going bankrupt and closing our store.

So I'm off on the job hunt again.

I just cannot go back to being home all day long again. CANNOT. UGH.

I have the photography thing,and that's all well and good. I have a game to shoot this Friday.

But I will miss My Pervs for sure. In fact, tonight, my Favorite Perv came in, and he was so sad that we're closing. this guy WALKS to the store when its nice out. he's the one with a pacemaker that "zaps" his heart 2-3 times a month. But does he quit the porn? nooooooo He might want to reconsider si all I'm saying.

So I will be out there looking for another job.

woo. fricking. hoo.

Ok, all bitchiness aside...

I kinda LIKE being a bitch sometimes....gets the point across just the right way, ya know?

and while I know that Bina and Zombie Mom are worried about me, don't be, ok? I"M GOOD. REALLY. HONEST. things will NEVER get back to what they were...I refuse to go there again. Won't happen.

Yes, I'm being cryptic. ;)

Getting the hair cut today.

I ate an english muffin for breakfast

I buy Pedigree brand dogfood

and Cottonelle toilet paper

and Prego spaghetti sauce.

that's all just for YOU Tranny!!!

MWAH!!!

Here's what I'm thinking...

I've become a vindictive bitch.

I don't like it.

I've lost my bloomin mind.

I don't like it.

So I need to get back to basics.

I'm usually not a vindictive person...I believe everyone gets what's coming to them...

which means I have what's coming to ME too. OUCH.

I don't like being a bitch, tho sometimes its needed.

I guess I need to find a middle ground somewhere....nice but not TOO bitchy.

Does that place even exist?