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What I love about Spring:

1..you finally get the chance to get outside and "get the stink blown off" as my grandma used to say.

2..it smells so good outside, esp. after it rains.

3..you get to wear some flip flops!

4..but before you do that, you MUST get a pedi. it's mandatory.

5..you can smell Summer right around the corner

6..you can grill outside without the snow!

7..TRACK SEASON!!!

8..flowers flowers flowers

9..the squirrels will come right up to you and eat out of your hand.

10.SUNSHINE!!!!

soup cooking

39 degrees out

but the sun is shining

I am happy

no ordinary love

This photo depicts what I'm feeling today.

Gray and gloomy.

I don't like to be played with.

I don't like to play games.

I don't like lowering myself to someone else's level in order to inflict revenge.

I don't like to play games with other people.

I don't like memories invading my space.

I don't like people who have an "agenda".

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Someone who hurt me terribly has crawled back into my life...and I've let them.

And I actually contemplated "getting even" with them.

But that's just not "me"....I see that I just. can't. do. it.

So I've decided to take the "high road" and behave accordingly.

I wish nothing but peace and happiness for this person, because feelings just don't disappear. they may fade over time, but some little crumb is still on the underbelly of your life.

I will accept apologies and will extend forgiveness with my whole heart.

I will protect what is mine from any invader who tries to steal it.

I will remember to live and love every day that I am here.

I will love the people that I love with my whole heart and soul.

I will cut out any toxic people who try to infect me with their sickness.

I will be strong.

Shoot "Em Up!!

Went shooting over the weekend. Didn't do too bad....and it's only the 2nd time I've ever shot a gun, so I was pretty happy!







Me and my friend Vicki, who took the classes with me. Now THIS girl can SHOOT!!!! She got 10 rounds in the middle of her circle like it was NOTHIN!!!!


My circle...not too good...but not too bad either.


My one target. Gotta get my aim better....and my grip. My grip needs some work.


Super Trooper settin up some targets for us.


It was fun but dang did my elbow hurt afterwards!!! wow. I'm so fragile, ya know? ;)

Buh Bye Porn room

Life is funny.

Yesterday was my last day at the video store. We worked for 13 hours closing up the store, packing up any movies left after the big .99 sale, packed up all the computers and crap like that. Left the store empty and spic and span.

and I got home last night at 10:30...and I was soooo sad. At first, I hated working there, but I grew to LOVE it. I finally get my ass out there to get a job and now I'm unemployed again! gotta start all over again.

I grew to love the people that I worked with. I'm pretty easy going...not high maintenance at all...get along with everyone. (basically) ;) HA! I DO carry a gun tho!

There were only 5 employees and the boss, who was a really cool boss. He worked with my traveling schedule, the basketball schedule...he was cool.

I'm gonna miss them. Esp. Cat, my Work Wife. She was friends with my oldest boy and I always joked that they needed to get married so that she could really be a member of my family. But we text daily, so I don't think there's a chance of us parting ways!

At first, the "regulars" coming in asked for the girl who worked before me, who I replaced...but then they started asking where I was when I had the day off. I had my little "groupies" who wanted to take me out, marry me, take me away from all "this"...and my regular pervs, who came in to rent porn. And Cat and I were the only women who would go back to the porn room, so all the pervs thought we were cool...could we recommend any "good porn"? Well, no we can't, cuz is there ever really any GOOD porn? ;)

So I start from scratch again. Not looking forward to it. But it will be fun to make new friends, I guess. that's getting easier too. It used to be very very hard for me. Not anymore.

Going to the past again

why won't Blogger allow me to upload a video to my blog?

I have a few from the Texas Trip that I wanted to share with you...DANG IT!!!

I have been cooking sauce and meatballs for the past 2 days...well, the sauce anyway. Meatballs just went in today. and the house smells freaking amazing!

I remember when I was little, and my mom would make Italian Wedding Soup. I would help her chop the celery and the carrots and the onions...and it would take days to make...and it smelled so good. You just KNEW it would be the best soup ever. and then she should make the bread that goes in it...man do I ever miss her Wedding Soup. I remember how she made it, but I've never tried to make it myself. I'm afraid that it just wouldn't be the same, ya know?

and can you believe it's SIXTY TWO here today??? IN MARCH!!! I'm sorta lovin Ohio right now, I gotta admit. but my yard? OMG...the snow has melted and you can tell that I have two big Labs...cuz the yard is a MESS! eewwww....and I just cannot make myself get out there and clean it up...so I'll save that for the boys later when they get home. ;)

So tell me what your favorite food memory as a child is....who made it? what does it make you think of?

It is a Beautiful day here in Ohio!!!

I know, you don't normally think, "Ohio=Beautiful" but today it is.

And it's even better cuz I'll be going to California soon!!!

I know, I'm a traveling fool, right?

you're right, I am.

I'll be going to see Nancy aka Zombie Mom run a marathon in Santa Cruz! WOOHOO!!!! then we will be at the beach for a week, I think. Doesn't get much better, right? ;)

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Just me and the boys at home right now, so we all slept in the living room last night, and laughed all night long. I have so much fun with them. And they were acting so silly!!! It was alot of fun.

Big basketball game tonight, which I can't attend since I have to work. But Sunday will be my last day. then I';m on the hunt for another job. I'm still doing the "companion" thing...tho it IS hard. I put it off and put it off......it's sooo very depressing. I've gotta to make a decision on this soon, if I'm to continue or not.

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I'm in a good place.

Put your hands in the air!

So.....

yesterday was my class to get my CCW license.

It was 12 hours long.

in an un-heated garage..

with 13 "good old boys" and a few women, one being my friend Vicki.

While it was fun...cuz we made fun of the "good old boys" all day long..

my goodness, I was frozen SOLID when I got home. and we all gave $5-10 to get pizza, and we got 2 slices each. done. that was it. the guy bought 2 sheets of pizza. So I was frozen AND hungry when I got home. Not a good combination, to say the least.

But the class was interesting. Lots of bookwork, for about 10 hours...then the last 2 we actually got to work with our guns.

I had Marvin's .357, vick had a .38 special. Marvin also brought his .40 cal., which is a semi-automatic.

The revolver was a little hard for me to shoot. The trigger was hard. But the semi? OMG...sign me up. I gotta get me one of those!!!! it was so smooth and easy. and the instructor did something really cool.

He was talking about breath control and keeping the gun steady and stuff, and then he balanced 5 pennies on the end of his gun, balanced on the front sites. he pulled the trigger....and the pennies never moved. COOL!

so I asked him how he would do that on my revolver cuz the sites were different, and he made me get up in front of the class and try it myself!

UH OH!

So I did,...got into my shooting stance, and he balanced the pennies on the site....and I did it!!! the pennies never moved!!!! WOOHOO!!!!

then later on, I did it again, with the revolver and the semi!!!! I told Marvin I'm gonna be SICK at shooting!!! I'm gonna practice and practice. I really enjoyed myself. So we passed the class, will get our certificate and then can apply for our license.

While I don't actually plan on carrying a concealed weapon, I will be legally allowed to. I just want to know how to shoot correctly and be able to defend myself should anyone break into my home. Its mainly for self defense...that and Marvin always forgets his gun int he car, then I drive the car! I could get pulled over and get into some big trouble with a gun in the car.

So the good old boys" in the class.....oh man. You guys know me by know...I hate stupidity and I hate ignorant assholes. Well, there were a couple guys who were that and more. I will save those stories for another day!

Normal stuff

catching up:

...I got a new job. the video store closes on March 14th. I'm sad. I really liked the people that I work with. But I am now a "companion" to a mentally challenged woman. Well, I can't really say "mentally challenged"...she's just nuts! ;) and she's lonely, so I spend time with her...get her to do her chores...stuff like that. be her friend basically, I guess.

...but I'm not sure I can do it. It breaks my heart. she's only FOUR years older than me, but she looks like she could be my mother. and she makes me think of my mom...this could have BEEN my mom...all alone, with no one to care for her..living alone in a one room apartment. it depresses me beyond belief. and that aint good.

...While in Texas, I bought my first pair of size 8 jeans! woohoo!!!! do you know how long it's been since I've worn a size 8?!!!! a good 20 years at least. woo fucking hoo!!!!!

...I have eaten a whole avocado for breakfast 3 days in a row this week. with wheat toast. yum. Making stuffed shells tonight...another YUM!

...took Austin to his neurologist to get the results of the MRI.
Everything is "normal"..tho how they know what "normal" is for him, I'll never know. And he said he did worse on the the testing after the Ritalin. I think this neuro is more focused on ADD kids...and that is not what Austin needs. he put him on Adderall, to help him concentrate in school. His grades have dropped wayyyyyy down. so he's taken the adderall for 3 days this week..he said it makes him feel like everything is in slow motion. Not too sure about this.

...I think our next step will be a neuro at Cleveland clinic who specializes in sports concussions and post concussion syndrome.

...I ma just not feeling American Idol this time around. I don't think they have very many good singers...no one is really standing out to me. and I haven't watched ONE SINGLE EPISODE of Project Runway. WHAT??!!!! yup, it's true. is it still even on? ;) I'm just not feeling tv these days.

...Peter Faccinelli will be at our local mall this Saturday, signing autographs. meh...who cares. if it was Edward cullen, then I would probably force myself to go see him.

...and this Saturday, I take classes to get my CCW license! Watch out! Pistol packin mama!!!

...my dog threw up yesterday morning, and I almost threw up too. I don't know why...it was mostly all water, but it was slimy and looked like egg whites..and I have a hard enough time eating eggs as it is!!!

...Austin passed his permit test and will now begin driving. O.M.G!!!! clear the roads people!

...I got this new stuff....its a makeup primer that you put on before your makeup. it's the consistency of dried up glue, almost, but it goes on like silk and makes your skin feel amazing! and it hides pores and makes fine lines vanish!..not that I have any of those, of course...

...I also have some videos to put up from my trip with Bina...us singing in the car..playing pool...and discussing hiding dead bodies out in the middle of no where...normal stuff.

Baked chicken with lots of garlic...moist and juicy.

Wild rice...YUM

asparagus...um....ya about THAT.

why does it taste so nasty? I am trying my best to eat it...it's steamed to perfection..still a little crunchy and so so green...but the TASTE!

good Lord in Heaven it's bad.

some pix

Driving into Dallas. the highways were sort of amazing..in an engineering kind of way.


Southfork Ranch. Didn't see JR wondering about tho.


Me and Bean...going out to the Ranch House country bar.


Route 66!!!!!


me and Bean. This was Sunday night, at the hotel in Jackson. Bean picked me up at the Nashville airport and off we went! Got in the car and took off for Texas. Well, it started raining like a big dog, so we stopped for the night. Changed clothes and tried to find a place to go! We finally went to Logan's, had a few drinks and then collapsed into bed.


Hi John! this is John De Mado, the man I sat next to on the plane. I really enjoyed talking to him. He was funny and charming.



Bean playing pool at the Ranch House. Let me tell ya, I had SO much fun at this bar! My first country bar. I am sooo not a country music fan, but it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. ;) We played pool, and they had a live band that night. so, the guys from the band keep walking by us playing pool, bringing in their equipment and stuff. The drummer..another John!, came over and grabbed my hand and dragged me out to the dance floor. and he taught me to do the "2-step"...at least I think it was the 2-step. that man danced me around that floor like nothing I've ever seen! he was in control,let me tell ya. Never danced like that before! Then we met a couple of guys playing pool on the table beside us...Rick and John. yes, another John! geez...that name is so boring!! ;)

So we hung out with Rick and John all night...laughing and dancing and drinking. Well, they drank...I drank water after my 2 cranberry & vodkas. It was fun...no pressure, no trying to pick us up...just people talking and having fun.


Me, Bean and her friend Wayne. Lunch at a Mexican place in Dallas...Wayne owns a motorcycle shop, repairing Harley's and doing custom painting. the bikes in there were FANTASTIC!!!


Bean and her boys, Kekoa and Brice. We drove to Kerrville to see them, got another hotel room, and spent the day with the boys. It was so much fun spending time with them..I hadn't seen them in 20 years! they were babies the last time I saw them, and now they're MEN. and funny! they were like a couple of puppies, seriously. I can't wait to see them again.

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that's all I've got for now. I gotta get busy. I'm signing a contract for a new job today, gotta get to the school and do some talking to them about Austin. and my house...or lord. gone for a week and you'd think it was a YEAR. whew.