Taking Austin to his neurologist today...hopefully for the last time.

he's doing much better.

Still having headaches...but the anger and personality changes have gone by the wayside.

Thank goodness, cuz THAT Austin was a pain in the butt! ;)

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Yes, I am going at midnight to see "Eclipse" !!!

TEAM EDWARD!!!!

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I have a big anniversary party to shoot this weekend, and I'm pretty excited. This couple has been married for 60 years.

SIXTY YEARS!!!

how is that even humanly possible???

I'll have to get them to give me some words of wisdom.

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off to the neuro guy, who is a total ass most of the time. :/

I want to wish My Tranny a speedy recovery.

I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU TRANNY!!!!

the one where I ramble on and on about absolutely nothing cuz Ive done nothing but drink iced tea all day and I am WIRED.

We have a rule in my house:

if we're listening to a song on the radio and you start to sing it, you first have to say who sang that song originally.

Like, if we're listening to classic rock, which is usually what we listen to....and the boys start to sing, I'll yell out,

"Who sings this??!!!"

and they have to tell me....right away. You don't get much time to think about it! and then and ONLY then, if you get it right, you are allowed to sing the song.

It's fun, and let me tell ya, my kids KNOW classic rock!!!

they also know to yell out this:

"Aerosmith! Led Zepplin! Bon Jovi! Rush! Journey!!" they know it's probably one of those bands anyway.

And I'll never forget when Evan was in 5th grade, he came home MORTIFIED...
"MOM!!!! Mrs Adair DOESN'T KNOW THE WORDS TO RAPPERS DELIGHT!!! Can you BELIEVE that??!!! That should be against the law!"

So, I was hanging out with my 2 oldest boys today..in Akron. And we're on our way to lunch and "Come on Eileen" comes on the radio....and we're all singing away...but I can't for the life of me think who sings it...I know it's 3 words.....its right on the tip of my tongue.....DEXIE'S MIDNIGHT RUNNERS!!!! ahhhh....did they ever sing anything else? Where's My Howard? I know he'll know the answer to this question.

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The youngest boy has become a night owl...staying up until 4am and sleeping till 2pm. So I get up the yesterday morning and THE DISHES WERE WASHED!!! WHAT? WHO?!!! HOW?!!! here, he was bored and decided to wash the dishes. I could get used to this. He also goes to his friend's house every night...he lives nearby so he rides his bike. and he takes a SHOWER before he goes down there. So I KNOW there is a girl involved somewhere! ;)


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My son got home from Poland and came bearing gifts. he is a very good gift giver to say the least. He puts time and thought into every gift he buys for someone. So what does he get his brother?...the one going off to college in a few months? shot glasses. way to go Bud. Thanks alot for that one. :)

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I've found that, if I'm not watching sports or "True Blood" then I don't really watch tv. I tried watching the movie, "Legion" the other night...boring as hell. Well, after the old lady climbed on the ceiling and took a chunk outta some guy's neck. That was the best part. I find it very hard to just sit and watch that stupid box. I have to be reading or doing something while I watch tv...I cannot just sit there, staring blindly and aimlessly at the tv. there aint nothing on tv THAT good.

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one of the boys was playing basketball in the backyard the other day and said that our neighborhood hawk came swooping down, grabbed a BIRD in its talons and flew off. all the other birds started squawking and all the little squirrels took off. Wish I could have seen that. and every night, I sit on my front porch and watch the SWARMS of bats fly over head. and I mean SWARMS. The people who used to live across the street moved in the middle of the night, and their house is standing empty. Well, not completely empty, cuz it's now full of bats. I see them swarm down the chimney and then you can see them flying around through the window. FREAKS ME THE F$#@ OUT!!!!!!

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and I need all your good thoughts coming my way...I have some big decisions to make and I need the strength to make them. nuff said.

LOVING/HATING

things I love today:

...working in my yard until the sweat drips down my back, soaking my shorts.


...having the guts to IGNORE an aquaintance who is in town and BEGGING for my attention. GOOD JOB BETH!!!

...the big HUGE jug of homemade Dego Red that a friend gave me.


...the new firepit on my patio.


...that Joey and Bree are spending the night tonight!!!


...that I am only 20 pounds away from my goal weight. I CAN DO IT.


...spending good quality time with my boys every night, playing cards and laughing till wee hours of the morning.


...that I was strong and secure enough to say to my oldest boy, "Go to POland and HAVE FUN!!!! DO IT!" (even tho he STILL hasn't e-mailed me to tell me he made it safely. bad boy.)


...the really super freinds I have in my life.


...Burt's Bee's Wax Lip Balm.


Things I'm NOT loving today:

...the itchiness all over my body from working in the yard till the sweat drips down and saoks my shorts.


...that the Celtics lost the game last night and we go to a game 7.


...the poison ivy growing rampant on my fence and the fact that, tho I have asked nicely numerous times, the husband still refuses to cut it down. WHY?


...that my dog is getting to his last days. Not walking good. his back end doesn't work most days and he is falling down all the time. SAD.


...the fact that I had to drive to the airport and I DIDN'T GET TO GO ANYWHERE!!!!!


...while I LOVE my red hair color, it is a bitch to maintain, let me tell ya. worse than blond in think. and my hair grows FAST (tho it falls out by the handfulls) and I have to color about every 2 1/2 weeks.


...that I haven't eaten today and my blood sugar is LOOOWWWWW and my hands are shaking so badly it is hard to type this. gotta eat something.


...BP. nuff said about THAT. assholes.

I am blogging from my bathtub.

How great to have internet on your stupid cell phone, right?! :)

Evan's grad party was yesterday.

We had a great turnout and he was pleased. Even had quite a few people from Marvin's family show up. surprise surprise!

I'm glad its over tho.

But I have discovered something else about myself.

I LOVE planning parties.

I love coming up with "themes" and all the different stuff to go with it.

So maybe what I need to do is factor that in with the photography somehow?

Party Planner/Photographer?! hahaha!

I think this would be better if I lived in a big town...

but i could do wedding showers, baby showers..grad parties. not WEDDINGS...that would be wayyyy too much pressure...

but i did have fun planning Rae's wedding with her. now THAT'S the girl i need to do this with!

maybe when we move down south, she and i could do something like that.

So "True Blood" is on tonite! woohoo!

gotta scrub-a-dub so i can watch it.

peace out!

for PHYS ED? are you freaking kidding me???

My kid's graduation party is tomorrow. I spent this morning making over 400 meatballs, two big roasters full with homemade sauce. I never EVER want to see another ball....meat or otherwise...again. and Pasta? I no longer Heart you. You are evil.

I am tired. Dead tired.

We just got back from the church.....the tables are up, the place is all decorated.

Now...let the people come and give my kid money for college.

the end.

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and Marvin took the say off to "help me"

Lord All Mighty I wanted to kill that man.

He has been in my way all. day. long.

I had to find things for him to go and do, just to get him outta my hair!!!! But do not worry, all you Bloggers...I told him thank you honey over and over and over again. He thinks some alien has inhabited my body I was so freaking nice to him! :)

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So me and the kid just got back from our walk. he has been walking with me lately since I lost my walking buddy..i.e. my guy friend who used to walk with me all the time. I like walking with him, (my kid)...we have some really good conversations while walking. I will miss him when he leaves for school.

And speaking of school, the younger boy.....he is going to to go TCTC, which is like a trade school, for the next 2 years. well, I got a letter from his home school saying that he was 1/4 of a credit short in PHYS ED and would have to go to summer school, for PHYS ED, and it would cost $100, for PHYS ED. YOU HAVE TO GO TO SUMMER SCHOOL FOR PHYS ED??!!!!!

Went to the school to find out HOW he could be 1/4 of a credit short. here they have no record of him taking phys ed his freshman year. HOW IS THAT POSSIBLE? It's factored into his schedule automatically!!! So marvin called his gym teacher's husband (long story there...they work together) and she called the school and got it all worked out. he DID take gym his freshman year..she remembered having him. What a big run-around and mix up. And the secretary at the school is a biotch and was giving me a hard time about it yesterday. OMG.

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so now I am off to the bathtub, where I will soak for about an hour...turning myself into a shriveled up prune. Get up early tomorrow, get to the church...do more cooking and then party. Supposed to go out tomorrow night with My Girls, but who knows what I will fell like after all this mess!!!

and can I just say this?

Women can be such bitches.

Since losing weight, I've lost a few women friends too.

they don't like it now that I am skinnier than they are.

WTH? I was their friend when they were skinnier than ME!!!!

Hey, I got tired of being "the duff".

Why is this? Shouldn't women support other women??

DAYUM!

Oh God...he was right. damn it!

ok...............

so I am now of the mind that women and men can't be "just friends"

and it makes me sad.

I like having men as friends.

They tell it like it is, and I like that. Tho they CAN be confusing at times.

But they don't gossip about you or talk behind your back like alot of women do...and they don't normally hold grudges. Normally.


But, I thought we were cool and I guess we're not. Other "factors" have taken over and we can no longer be friends.

And that's ok.

I think people come in to our lives at different times for different reasons.

some stay forever, some stay for years.....some just stay for a few months.

I will take what's good and throw out the rest. And I won't be sad for what I've lost in this friendship, but be happy for what I've gained.

and that's insight into the mind of a Man. So that can only help me in the long run, right? ;)

and it taught me a lesson:

Men and women can't be friends without the "sex" thing getting in the way, no matter how much I'd like to think differently.

So my husband was right.

I don't have to tell him that do I? ;)

MOOOOOOOOO! MOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Me and my guy friend are cool again...butttt........

there is a change.

makes me sad.

But what can I do? not much.

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so this Saturday is my son's open house part for graduation. We were going to do the whole Mexican buffet thing, but he's changed his mind and wants to go Italian. So we are doing homemade meatballs and sauce, pasta and salad and stuff.

we went to 3 different parties yesterday...and the food was amazing....not in taste but in abundance! and one party had cookies galore....you'd think it was a wedding! One party had a "candy bar" that was really cute. all different kinds of candy in big jars, like an old fashioned store. really cute. But then you get the required "chicken, pasta and green beans" on the menu. GAWWWWD, I get so tired of that stuff. so I will be doing some shopping this week, and probably start on the sauce on Thursday, make hundreds of meatballs on Friday...or maybe Thursday, cuz Friday is gonna be caraaaazzzzeeeeee! Doing all the decorating on Friday night and then put it all together on Saturday..party from 1-4pm, clean up and then collapse!

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Crazy weather in Ohio this past weekend. Tornadoes and storms all over the place. My and my kid RUN out to the porch everytime we have a storm and sit out there and watch it go by. tornado be damned!!!! We're watching it!

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And can anyone say that the new movie "Killers" with Kathryn Heigle and Ashton Kutcher is a re-make of "Mr. & Mrs. Smith" come on Hollywood...lets do something new, shall we. tho I will probably see it, cuz I like both of them...especially the male one! MMMMMMMMMM.

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and I just have to say that I was a big fat heifer this weekend...I ate so freaking much food. UGH. the size 6 is a long wayyyyy off after this weekend! BOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.


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I wish the whole Jackson family would just go away. I don't like them. I hate their fake faces and their fake voices and their fake everything. GO AWAY.

nuff said.

advice needed cuz i'm in strange territory and don't know what to do here

so here's the thing...

I have a friend. he's a good friend. At least I thought so.

We kind of "broke up" yesterday, and I don't really know why.

Now, this is a man, yes, but we really were "just friends".

We would talk about his dates and what he should do and wear and such...

sample:

him..."What should I wear? clothes?" (we have the same twisted sense of humor)

me...."Yes, clothes would be good in this situation. How about the blue striped shirt you have? and be sure and start buttoning it from the bottom up so you don't screw it all up."

him..."fuck you"

me...."no thank you"

him..."Should I kiss her?"

me...."sure, if you feel it. but DO NOT have sex on the first date.Not unless all you're looking for is a booty call, then by all means, get your freak on."

yada yada...you get the idea.

So we would talk about everything. I could be myself around him...cuss in front of him. call him a motherfucker if I wanted to and he wouldn't get mad at me, or scream at me. I could even BURP in front of him and he would rate them! "That was only a 3, Red, (he calls me Red) come on..you can do better than that!" (there is NO burping in my house by me...women "don't do that" and I get yelled at if I burp...or fart, cuz women don't do that either)

So we talk every day, text every day, that sort of thing. FRIENDS. and Monday we had a really good conversation about what he's looking for in a woman. he's recently divorced and just dating around. Well, we both have a twisted, sarcastic sense of humor...the more twisted, the better. So I told him I found him a 12 year old who wore sundresses and had a bush down to her knees...and he got grossed out, and we laughed, cuz that's the complete opposite of what he's looking for.

Then Tuesday, he was going out after work with a woman, for drinks. And I was texting him, asking if she was there yet, what does she look like?,...is she cuter than me? that kind of thing. Just joking around with him, like we always do.

Then yesterday, he didn't say "Moanin Red" like he does every morning in a text..and I asked him if he was mad at me. I mean, he wakes me up every morning with this text. and he said, "not really". WTF does THAT mean? I asked him if it was because I was being so obnoxious the night before..(and I was totally obnoxious, which I usually am around him cuz thats who I am in real life!)..I apologized profusely, told him I was only joking that I hoped she didn't show up, that sort of thing.

He says this: "You meant to do exactly what you did. so don't say your sorry"

I said, "what exactly did I do?"

he said, "tried to ruin my time with someone else"

WHATTHEFUCK??!!!!!

So, we didn't speak all day yesterday, then last night he said that he wants me to stop texting him...don't call him, don't text him..he is done with women, yada yada yada.

Now, in his defense, his wife screwed him over bad, so he kind of hates all women right now, but I thought we had worked past that..and had settled into a nice fun friendship. I could bust his chops and he could bust mine. I talked to him when I was upset, and he talked to me when he was upset. When a date didn't work out, we talked about it, what could he do different next time...that kind of stuff.

So I am just a little flabbergasted by all of this right now. and hurt.

I am a big supporter of men and women being friends together. Marvin says NO WAY can they be friends cuz one of the two always wants to have sex with the other one. Men and women CAN'T be friends. But I don't think that way. I think a little sexual tension is bound to happen...we are Humans after all. But I think you can get past that and move on to something deeper and lasting.

So to lose this friend is sad to me. very very sad. and I am sad today. and crying today. and miserable today. and I'm left wondering, "what the hell happened? and where was I when this happened?!" and yes, Marvin knows we are friends....there is nothing secret going on here.

And while we're on the "marvin front"...things are the same. some things never change and some things always stay the same.

so what the hell is going on here? what should I do? do I just give my friend space and see what happens? I'm lost.

I am out of my piss ass mood and feeling much better now.

thanks for bearing with me!

Doesn't happen often, but boy when it does! WATCH OUT!!!

the holiday weekend wasn't that bad....spent it with my boys, as usual. Marvin did his thing, I did mine. cool.

and can I just say that I tried on a size 6 jeans yesterday. Ok....I could get them up over my huge hips but couldn't get them buttoned but still!!!! I got them half way on!!!!! I WILL get there....I WILL. (even if it kills me and I have to throw up my food for the next month, I WILL fit into a 6!) now, ya'll KNOW I'd never throw up my food....it messes your teeth all up and I am ALL about the teeth!!! :) no "bulimia mouth" for me, no sir...or "meth mouth" tho I HAVE thought about it. true.

I am driving to Pittsburgh tonite with a friend of mine. we are doing dinner and I'm going to get some shots of the city. then we pick her daughter up at the airport. she is flying home from California where she visited her boyfriend who is shipping out to Afghanistan for a year. :(

and I'm getting "antsy" again...time for another trip somewhere!!!