tell me this:
have you ever had an instant "connection" with someone?
felt that electricity?
felt like you were alive for the first time in your life>
felt like that person "got" you?
When? what happened to that "connection"?
I've only felt it twice in my life time.
It's addicting.
It's passionate.
and when it's gone, it's devastating.
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thank you for the nice compliment on my pictures :)
you are very very welcome! they are fabulous!
Do you want me to answer or talk blogosphere gibberish and in trite platitudes..? I don't know if I have that in me, anyway, so here goes...
The Delta Girl and Tee Jay both hit me as magnetic and I think that I did the same for them as well. The first impression, the first interaction, I KNEW instantaneously that they were who I thought they were.
As to why things did not go the distance..? Hey, what do you want me to say?? I do think that I could have done better by both but it wasn't like they did not have their hand in... aw, forget it, it was my bad and my regret.
It is funny how things work for me. As soon as I saw a picture of you I said to myself, "Dag, she reminds me of the girl I served in Korea with...', and dontcha know who would eventually find their way back into my life..? And like my Delta and Tee Jay, I never stopped loving her. It was fait that took us away from each other. Though while we were in the Army our connection was not a 'romantic' connection it was a love connection. I would have and came as close as a cat could to losing their life for her. When we were kids (because that is all we were back then) I would have died for her without blinking twice.
When I saw your picture I felt a tug that she would come back into my life, but at the time I did not know how. When I did my 'ten year plan' for the first decade of the new millenium, I had a spot for the random person that decided they wanted me ... and in she came from the north, completely out of nowhere and sudden. So when Nebraska and I had a falling out, it left a crack that my girl came through.
Even though I am in Omaha, I still have much love for her. Am I still IN love with her..?
Well, lets talk about Nebraska for a bit. We met on-line and after 'tradin' paint', email and IM's, there were things that marked her almost from the beginning... the first being the car that she was driving at the time. Didn't have any pictures but she described herself honestly and it simply happened that I like full figured women (or whatever you'd like to call a woman who isn't a slimmie like you are Beth :0) ) and I knew that I had to get to Omaha to find out what's what.
We took the long way around to get to each other but I think it has been worth it. That you have felt this feeling twice, consider yourself fortunate for real. I have felt lucky, given that so many folks are unhappy with their status. Many people haven't even sniffed the diverse relationships I have been a part of, much less the 'golden ticket' relationships that I have.
I really know that I have hd 'it' twice... and let's not get into all the people who are on a second tier... not in the rareified air as the Delta, Tee Jay (and maybe Nebraska??). Shoot, if that list began and ended with Nixxie and Pecan Sandie, what am I talking about... shots at 4 game winners and two where you could say I took the game to the final few moments. Meanwhile you have others who never even get into the tournament or in a big game.
Be glad that you have what you have... trite and even I bristle at that on occasion. And appreciate what you did have as well. Because if you are like me, that stuff WILL happen again, dontcha know!!
I know what you mean. I had that sort of connection with one of my exes. We were never romantic, but our relationship was...complicated, to say the least.
He's now married to one of my best friends, and I couldn't be happier for them. I'm more than thrilled that we're all friends (he was friends with my husband before we got married, too).
big mark: I love you man....never short on words or wisdom. xoxox
Yes, and as another poster said...complicated. Honestly, I hope it never happens again.
Guess I left my positive pants in the closet this morning....
How are you? :)
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