Well another one is leaving the nest.
Friday I will be down to just one boy at home.
And it scares me!
Things are changing so fast around here...yet it's taken years to get to this point.
When the kids were little, I dreamed of the day when they would all fly the coop and leave me and the hubs alone in the house together. We could take baths together! We could walk around naked whenever we wanted to! and have sex whenever and where ever we wanted to!
WOOHOO!
Now that time is fast approaching and it scares the hoohaw outta me.
What if it's not as amazing as I thought it would be? What if we don't want to "do it" all the time, like we planned? :)
What if I don't know who I am without my kids? THAT'S the big Question here.
The past year, I've been carving out a nice little life for myself, separate from being a Mom....I have wonderful friends who love me and think Im funny...and actually want to spend time with me! Without My Kids in tow! Who woulda thunk it?
Its so hard at the start...when your kids are little and your whole world revolves around them. You don't work outside the house cuz raising your kids is important to you and what you feel is best for everyone. No offense to Working Mom's..more power to ya! I just knew that I couldn't do it...I couldn't do both jobs and excel at them both. so I chose one to excel at, and I feel I've done that. I have some fantastic kids if I do say so myself! I genuinely LIKE each and every one of them. Any friends that you make tend to have kids around the same age as yours....you become friends with the friends parents...you spend time at each other's houses...watching the kids play and talking about kids. it's KIDS all the time.
But now, they are leaving the nest...and that's what they're supposed to do. That's what I've raised them to do. I do NOT want a 45 year old man still living at home with his mama...no. freaking. way. :)
So Once again, I have to look in the mirror and see who it is I am now. She's not bad looking as far as looks go...better than some....uglier than others. Oh well. I make do with what I have.
I guess I need to try and see myself as others see me, and that's hard.
and to top it all off, im being stalked on facebook. I know....has nothing to do with what I was talking about.!! But a person I have tried to avoid has been creeping my page. So not cool. and all under the guise of another name. SOOOOOOOO not cool. So I think Facebook has lost some of the appeal for me. Time to move on perhaps.
Where is all this going? I HAVE NO IDEA!!!!
it's a time of reflection and inspiration and of dreaming.
7 comments:
They leave and then they come back :-)
Which has been a good thing for me, kind of a long semi-trial of this empty nest thing. Right now - one in Seattle, one at a local college and one working locally. Next fall - who knows.
froggy: I knew you would feel me on this one..
I'm going through the same thing right now and feeling a bit lost. It maybe wouldn't be so hard except the daughter is leaving for California in a few weeks, a world away from here. When she was in Indianapolis I could take a day and go see her, now that's not going to be a possibility. I didn't think it would hit me this hard!
I have enjoyed my empty nest for over 3 years now...the first few weeks I walked around in a daze not knowing what to do or how to act. That ended real quick when I realized I do whatever I want, whenever I want, and however I want now! (Of course my empty nest also included getting rid of the hubby a few years earlier, you could say I planned REALLY well lol) Embrace it girl, think about all the things you put off because your kids were always your priority and you didn't have time or money. Now is your time to make yourself the priority, your ME time! I gotta tell you, I love my kids like crazy, but they come home now for a few days and it's total chaos- then they leave and I sit back down on the couch with a glass of wine and breathe a big sigh that I have my nice quiet little life back!! You will get used to it real quick, trust me!! My next big step is getting the last one done with college, one more year and I will be RICH, or at least it will sure feel like it!!
as for the stalker, email or mesaage me the info and I will be ON IT!!
Beth, I love you girl! You have grown. I count it a privilege, yes I really do, to have been able to go through some of your growth with you. I think ALOT of you and super trooper. You will adjust with the empty nest ~ me, I'm soooo looking forward to it. :) Maybe we'll be empty nesters together!!!!!! :) Love you girl!
The Preacher's Wife
One good thing they fly aways but always come back...Your not getting rid of him that easy...Hugs I feel your pain
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