another one

Well, I survived another anniversary of my mom's death.

it's still hard.

but it's not as hard as it used to be.

I can look back now, and smile and laugh at the crazy things she used to do.

If you've been here for any amount of time, you know that the relationship with my mother was tumultuous, at best. We had our ups and downs...mostly downs over the years.

There were many years where we had no contact at all.

Now I see that as such wasted time. My brother and I still don't speak. I don't even know where he is, how he is...if he's even alive. I assume he IS, since I haven't heard other wise! Oh wait...I DID get a call from his "wife"..and I put it like that cuz I don't know if they're really even married anymore or what. But he wanted something form me, of course, cuz why else would she be contacting me. It was a piece of paper that he needed from me, which I can't find...or was thrown out YEARS ago. so now he has just one more reason to hate me.

Which is really his loss, cuz im freaking FABULOUS!!!! lol!

But my mom did teach me to be a really good grandma. She always said, "Im a horrible mother but Im a really good Nana". So true. :)

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Im watching some show on TLC about having multiple babies....HOW DO THESE PEOPLE DO IT??!!!!! OMG, I would lose my bloomin mind. seriously.

just thought I'd throw that in there. :)