I've decided that I am really going to get back to my blog.

REALLY.

It was this blog that got me through so much in my life, and introduced me to so many fabulous people. I've been treating it like the step-child you can't stand to be around, but NO MORE!!


Im kinda tired of the Facecrack. Never really got into the Twitter. Google +? fuhgetaboutit.

sooooo...while my voice has changed, Im sticking with THIS blog. This is where my heart is, where my friends and family are. Why go elsewhere? everyone's voice changes, if they are growing, right? we just need to go with the flow, instead of ducking out and starting elsewhere.

So, Im going to try and blog every day like I used to. I used to say, "Oh, I am SO blogging about this!" then it became, "Oh I am SO facebooking this!"

But I love my blog...it shows who I used to be, and who I am now, and who I hope to be in the future.

so there ya go.

:)

Murff is good...fleas.

He has fleas.

But it just can't be that simple...ohhh nooooooooooooo.

He's highly allergic to them..and to dust mites...and just about everything else.

Good Lord!!!!

HE JUST A DOG!!! (did I really just say that outloud? I hope he didn't hear me!)

So, he got a steroid shot, Frontline, Interceptor, and he's on a steroid for the next month.

the cost, you ask?

$107.00

for a dog that weighs 4.7 lbs. Thats 22.77 per pound.

But he's totally worth it.

but DAYUMMMMMM.

smellin like helen up in here

cupcakes.

Im makin them. for the football team. a football team full of teen aged boys. who play football.

at 8:30 in the freaking morning. WTH?

I've been up since 3:30am. Couldn't sleep...got up to check on Murff cuz he's not feeling well. Im taking him to the vet this morning. He was in a corner in the bathroom, shaking, all night long. When he's sick or in pain, he goes off by himself....he won't sit with me, he won't let me hold him or comfort him. He goes off to a corner somewhere and I have to hunt to find him. So off to the vet he goes this morning.

I have to have the cupcakes at the school by 3:30. Thursday is "feed the team"...and local restaurants donate a meal to the team, and they all eat together after practice. and the parents donate the desert. So I was gonna make something ....decadent. But nooooooooooooo...these are teen aged boys. chocolate and vanilla cupcakes it is. BORING.

and what it is with me and sleep. anyway? we used to be such good friends...not anymore. haven't been for a couple of years now. it's like my mind just wont shut off, even with sleeping pills. Im constantly thinking things...singing songs....talking things through in my head. It just never shuts off. I just want some quiet...for a couple of hours...to really sleep. REALLY sleep. a deep, restorative sleep. Oh how I want that.

another one

Well, I survived another anniversary of my mom's death.

it's still hard.

but it's not as hard as it used to be.

I can look back now, and smile and laugh at the crazy things she used to do.

If you've been here for any amount of time, you know that the relationship with my mother was tumultuous, at best. We had our ups and downs...mostly downs over the years.

There were many years where we had no contact at all.

Now I see that as such wasted time. My brother and I still don't speak. I don't even know where he is, how he is...if he's even alive. I assume he IS, since I haven't heard other wise! Oh wait...I DID get a call from his "wife"..and I put it like that cuz I don't know if they're really even married anymore or what. But he wanted something form me, of course, cuz why else would she be contacting me. It was a piece of paper that he needed from me, which I can't find...or was thrown out YEARS ago. so now he has just one more reason to hate me.

Which is really his loss, cuz im freaking FABULOUS!!!! lol!

But my mom did teach me to be a really good grandma. She always said, "Im a horrible mother but Im a really good Nana". So true. :)

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Im watching some show on TLC about having multiple babies....HOW DO THESE PEOPLE DO IT??!!!!! OMG, I would lose my bloomin mind. seriously.

just thought I'd throw that in there. :)

Some pictures of The Murff Man...Mr. Murphy...Charlie Murphy....the Murfinator

ch ch ch changes

ya know when you have kids, and they're little and you think to yourself...

"when the kids get bigger, things will be so much easier"

Well, I have one kid left at home. ONE. And things are still crazy.

The photo biz has gotten crazy and I can no longer handle the weddings alone. so.......my cousin and I are going into business together. We're going to concentrate on engagements/weddings and branch out and do the baby thing too. We eventually want to do the whole event planning thing, and have everything in one location..the event planning, photography, decorating, catering...all in one. We have a decorator...we'll handle the photography...and the event planning. But I will focus mainly on the photography. So we will be looking for a chef soon. Taking on too much?? I don't think so. It's extremely exciting right now. I wake up every day wondering what that day will bring. I love it!

and I will be doing a new blog. I have a few ideas on that front too. I miss blogging and want to get back to it. I was talking to Zombie Mom yesterday, and we realized that our blogging friends are our family, and some of the people we are closest to in this world. I like that.

Sooo......lots of changes coming up. I hope I can keep up!!!