things I would say

THINGS I WOULD TELL MY 6 YEAR OLD SELF:

Your mommy loves you. But she's very sick, and feels it's best to stay away from you for a while. Go with your grandma, who loves you. She will take good care of you.

I know you miss your little sister, but one day, you will see that she's in a much better place. heaven is a wonderful place! She will be saved from much heartache, and as much as you love her, I know you want what's best for her.


THINGS I WOULD TELL MY 12 YEAR OLD SELF:

That Elton John cassette tape you like so much? It belongs to your step-sister, not you. Don't steal it from her and then say she gave it to you. STEP AWAY FROM THE CASSETTE!! Just ask your step mom if you can have one too, to take home with you. She will be more than glad to buy you your own tape. And then you won't be sad for losing your step mom and step sister over a stupid cassette tape.




THINGS I WOULD TELL MY 14 YEAR OLD SELF:

those Frye boots you have? KEEP THEM FOREVER.

big boobs are over rated.

have fun with your Best Friend, Robina. run around the football stadium playing Nancy Drew...make prank phone calls, steal your grandma's car when she goes to bingo with your aunt. Those are all memories that will stay with you forever.

and always remember what it's like to be that skinny. cuz one day, you won't be.



THINGS I WOULD TELL MY 17 YEAR OLD SELF:

acne goes away...eventually. But drying your skin out with all that medicine isn't helping. trust.

popularity isn't all it's cracked up to be.

those dreams you have of going to California and riding horses on the beach? DO IT. Go to college and live out your dreams. No dream is too silly or unattainable.

Be nice to your grandma. She loves you and has saved your butt more times than you know. She will always be there for you.

and give your mom a break, while you're at it. you have NO IDEA what her life has been like. she's ill. And one day she will need you to be there for her. And you will be.

Listen to that little voice inside you that tells you to go say hi to Mr. Lavin. This will save you from a horror that will stick with you for the rest of your life.

And if you don't say hi to Mr. Lavin, then do whatever you have to do to survive. a man will grab you and take you to the middle of nowhere and do unspeakable things to you. he will dump you out like you are garbage, and for many many years, you will feel like garbage. Like you're worth nothing. BUT YOU ARE WORTH SOMETHING. remember this. and always look over your shoulder for this monster. always.

that boy over there? the one that keeps staring at you? yes, he's kinda scary, but once you get to know him, you'll see that he's very charming and funny. but he's also a LIAR, and he will break your young heart.

You'll fall madly in love with that liar, and you'll get pregnant. DON'T LET PEOPLE BULLY YOU INTO GIVING YOUR BABY UP FOR ADOPTION! BE STRONG! yes, it will be hard...but I have faith in you. You were meant to be a mother. Don't let others direct your life.

That Boy? I'm not going to tell you to stay away from him, because the magnetic pull to him is too great. And he will give you 2 beautiful daughters, who will be the joy of your life. You will want those memories. Just remember the lessons you learn too.


THINGS I WOULD TELL MY 22 YEAR OLD SELF:

That guy you met at the bar last night? He will be The Love Of Your Life. You won't realize it yet, but he will be. Stick it out. There will be Bad Years and there will be Good Years. soon, the Good years will out weigh the Bad Years.

THINGS I WOULD SAY TO MY 28 YEAR OLD SELF:

get your ass to a doctor and get on an anti depressant. Enough said.


THINGS I WOULD TELL MY 40 YEAR OLD SELF:

40 isn't so bad, is it? You still look relatively good and your have GREAT kids. And now you have that daughter you gave up for adoption in your life too, cuz you didn't listen to my advice. But she's also made you a Grandma to the sweetest little boy ever. But you feel....."unfulfilled". Do something about it, but don't betray your integrity.

THINGS I WOULD TELL MY 45 YEAR OLD SELF:

The friends you make from your blog? they are REAL friends. Don't let others tell you different. Some of them will be there for you when you need them most, when you are most alone in the world. THANK THEM. And ENJOY them. DON'T LOSE TOUCH WITH THEM.

LOSE WEIGHT YOU FAT HEIFER! You weigh 190 lbs for goodness sake! That is wayyyy too much for you. Start exercising...eat less. You have teenage boys, but you are NOT one of them, so stop eating like you are. You won't regret it.

there is this thing called Facebook. Yes, you can take part, but watch what you do and say. Cuz it will be out "there" forever.

and remember, just cuz someone says something on Facebook, doesn't mean it's true. You will have an old friend from high school contact you. This person is a liar times 10. Take everything they say with a grain of salt. And see them for what they REALLY are: a pathetic example of a human being, who has very low self esteem and has to lie to make themselves feel important. Pity them. But don't befriend them.


THINGS I WOULD SAY TO MY 65 YEAR OLD SELF:

You've had a good life, with a man who loves you beyond measure. You have children and grandchildren, and they all love you. Appreciate what you have, cuz there are so many people out there who would DIE to trade places with you. Remember that.

and keep your girlfriends close. Go out to lunch. go out dancing! Go to the beach!!! But always use sunscreen. :)


THINGS I WOULD SAY TO MY 80 YEAR OLD SELF:

you've done a good job of letting the people you love, KNOW that you love them. You've kept your free spirit and your laughter. and your "natural" red hair. But it's late now. You can close your eyes and rest. Life will go on without you, but it will be all the richer cuz you were in it.