So much going on.
some good. some not.
Life is changing fast....even tho it's taken years to get to this point.
And it makes me appreciate long slow lazy days in the sun. When you're young and haven't a care in the world...you don't get the mail, you never answer the phone cuz you now it's not for you, you never worry about what you'll eat the night cuz supper is always made for you by someone else. You're biggest worry is if you'll still have a Best Friend tomorrow and if you'll have someone to sit next to in the cafeteria.
I've made some decisions that were very hard to make. Gut wrenching, soul searching decisions. The kind of decisions that effect your whole family and change lives. I pray that I make the right choices. I pray that my kids will be ok throughout the process of change.
But I know for my own peace of mind, I have to do what I feel is best for me. I've put everyone before me for so long, that these thoughts feel very selfish and foreign to me. And while I'm scared....I'm also filled with hopes and dreams that I haven't dared to dream before. My heart is breaking for the hurt I've caused, but I pray that we all come out of the fire stronger.
More to come as things progress.